Love
Is
Always
Your
Friend
One morning, this morning, I woke up for the 5th time of the night covered in sweat, dripping from my neck down my back, even my booty was wet.
I feel guilty and dizzy
I feel tired and awake
I feel lost on course
I feel guilty for what
What have I lied about
I took Janet's painkillers
I up-charged rent
I fell in love with two men
I need to listen to all of my sets
I need to be more prepared
I need to get a microphone
I'm on food stamps
I should have left already
I need to pay rent
What if...
I don't get what I need
What if I'm always playing it cheap
Are my views and my actions aligned
Are my feelings at the front or observed from behind
What day is it
What month
How old am I
Will Pat forgive me
Will Jessica grow up
Am I dying
I'm still bleeding
Am I okay or am I pretending
They say I'm depressed
Who are they
I can't remember they
I'm happy
Confused
Am I living right
Should I pay the parking tickets
Should I go to bed
There are no should(s)
I'm fine
This panic gets further with time
I hadn't felt you in awhile
A pain I missed you
And here we find
A slow goodbye
A sweet goodnight
You talked yourself down
You're alright
Alyssa Westerlund
Is
Always
Your
Friend
One morning, this morning, I woke up for the 5th time of the night covered in sweat, dripping from my neck down my back, even my booty was wet.
I feel guilty and dizzy
I feel tired and awake
I feel lost on course
I feel guilty for what
What have I lied about
I took Janet's painkillers
I up-charged rent
I fell in love with two men
I need to listen to all of my sets
I need to be more prepared
I need to get a microphone
I'm on food stamps
I should have left already
I need to pay rent
What if...
I don't get what I need
What if I'm always playing it cheap
Are my views and my actions aligned
Are my feelings at the front or observed from behind
What day is it
What month
How old am I
Will Pat forgive me
Will Jessica grow up
Am I dying
I'm still bleeding
Am I okay or am I pretending
They say I'm depressed
Who are they
I can't remember they
I'm happy
Confused
Am I living right
Should I pay the parking tickets
Should I go to bed
There are no should(s)
I'm fine
This panic gets further with time
I hadn't felt you in awhile
A pain I missed you
And here we find
A slow goodbye
A sweet goodnight
You talked yourself down
You're alright
Alyssa Westerlund