After 3 hours of meditating I had a spiritual experience; I was a river of light and everyone I loved was there. Then I had some tequila because I can't handle that enlightenment shit.
P.S. I love you.
P.S. I love you.
After 3 hours of meditating I had a spiritual experience; I was a river of light and everyone I loved was there. Then I had some tequila because I can't handle that enlightenment shit.
P.S. I love you.
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Had a really girly night last night dancing at karaoke. A new friend and I were singing along, "You and me in paradise" I told her I was imaging us in leather bikinis running towards a waterfall. She immediately rejected this saying she would look terrible in a leather bikini. I told her she would look amazing, fuck that! She said that I could say that because of the way I look. I told her that "beautiful" women are insecure too, as far as the media is concerned none of us are beautiful enough. Then she told me she needs to get a leather bikini. Cheers to new friends! We are enough!
I feel strongly about our 2nd Amendment rights. The right to self-defense, the right to resist oppression.
In a country where we are patrolled by police who carry firearms I feel losing our right to bear arms would engender a (more apparent) martial law scenario. We can take the guns away but from everyone like magic- guns be gone. Unfortunately in reality, without magic, bad people and authority figures will still have guns. Honest people are left defenseless. Yikes. What's the real problem? Mental health, income inequality, education, fake food? I'm sick of the repression, people need an outlet for their emotions and our society does not facilitate healthy discussion. The stigma associated with emotions is a precursor to the mental health stigma. People often judge me for being 'filter-less' and it's hard to put my ever changing opinions and beliefs on the table but if I don't my mind will never change, growth becomes static. Should I accept this is the world I live in? That is what I am told to do. Acceptance is great and all but I can't, in this moment, wrap my head around how to accept the violence and hatred I see everywhere, everyday. Our culture is failing us. Amendments are like band aids and we're piling them on. Law after law regulating things that we shouldn't need to. We are children. The government is our parents and we, the mostly honest working class, middle class, (whatever makes you comfortable) are trying to make our abusive parents love us. Too many people are angry and no one is addressing this emotion. Anger is a signal, a response to things that aren't right for us, it isn't supposed to last, or be fixed with a pill, it's an issue asking to be addressed. Is Game of Thrones the glorified anthem of our petty disputes and unhealthy reactions? I have my work to do, I know I can't save the world. I have anger and it's scary. While I use tobacco, marijuana and occasionally alcohol to suppress different emotions, while I don't have all the tools, I will risk this. I throw my heart to the world as a steak to rabid dogs. The world is a mirror and some days I look better than others. I hate Science and God equally. I hate both of these options. I mean what has god done… recently? And science, 100’s of millions, billions of dollars spent, thousands of hours of research and the National Academy of Science publishes an article that proves babies like to dance. WTF; what about cancer and male birth control pills? Cancer can’t trend, it’s a degenerative disease not a virus and male birth control pills whoa, whoa, whoa, let’s not tax the patriarchy. Seriously a Mr. Scientist said the male birth control pill was not feasible because the side-effects were too taxing. Ladies, what kind pussies are these guys, I’m starting to think they don’t even like sex. Speaking of taxes only a government funded shit show like The National Academy of Science would waste good money on a meme. I digress.
I don't hate God, I'm just sick of hearing about him. I don't hate science either but its like a bad movie where the rich win and the poor die until a hero arrives and destroys the .00001% and everyone lives happily ever after. We have the technology, we have the science and we let people suffer. Sure we can be happy in our relationships and happy in our hearts but the payment for life is too high and too many work too hard for too little. But now I'm preaching. Haha. |
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