For Leave, Leave For
I love you, I fear you, I am not you.
An idea. A blip of energy, in a blip of space.
Who am I? The question torments.
I'm alone, scared, alive, in love and brave.
The emotions are so easily confused and I so easily used to employ them. My heart so big it surpasses my body, my head so used it drags me as an untrained puppy. Look see, look see, so many things to look, see. Pain confirms life. Pain is a friend we can't shake and we don't understand. Pain loves unconditionally.
Just let me love you I spew from my gut, just let me love you, is this love not enough.
Two wolves, living in the same house, eating out of the same bowl, washing with the same cloth.
Without delusions of patching and fixing, I know I can't save anyone from this our human condition. The question can I save myself?
Plainly, no. No saving is needed. As fish floundering, as bear sitting, as beggar hungry, as rich man full, as mother feeding, as father fuels... There is no saving, this is our truth. We are complete, not partial, not leaking. We are whole pushing out and finding empty. When I go inside I see light, when I go inside the child god is alive. The universe, a net, a web of support and I believe in god enough to believe this energy deemed god gives not a smidgen more than we need.
When feelings of love swell, thoughts of god come in and hold my hand.
You are where you are and this is the only place to be.
Take comfort in your strength, take comfort, you are weak.
I don't know where I'm going and I know little of want. The thing that torments, the questions and the expectations are not real. The fear, the love they no more exist than they are different.
All one, the words melt into one.
Today Tomorrow Forever
Time is one and for leave I love.
Fear is stop. Love is go. Good or bad is nothing we know.